Back at it

Only 3 months. only 3 did it take me to start writing here again. But this time I'm going to keep it up. I read recently that it helps with writing to write. So this is going to be like exercise.

So I haven't had a breakfast taco is probably 6 weeks and that's very sad for me. Breakfast tacos are one of the best reasons for Austin and indeed part of the reason for this blog.

But anyway, lets see what's been going on. School has been really busy. Life has been really busy. And I've been letting the business of school really get to me recently. The problem is, I'm not really sure I even want to be a law librarian. And I'm not sure what kind of training I'm getting here. Megan tries to say that "I can do anything. blah blah blah." But it looks more to me like I'm writing myself into yet another super specialized profession. Its not that its so bad, its just it irks me to be perceived as some sort of second class citizen. It irks me when people are surprised when I say I practice law. Because I do.

Oh sigh. I need to work on the self confidence, but now just isn't the time. I really miss mom and andrew and kathryn and dad. Oh dad. It's 6 days from the anniversary of his passing and i feel on the verge of breaking down a little. I miss dad every day. Every day I have a "oh why isn't dad here" moment. I wish there were some way that I could remember him better. I'm still so conflicted over his passing. I don't really know how i should feel.

But anyway, work is work. class is class. tomorrow i have to put up with crowdsourcing, which is part of the reason for this blog. so i can start jotting down ideas so my paper doesnt suck. and the exam i have in law libraries. dont want that to suck either.